It was not pre-weathered
I weathered it
As i myself weathered
Now me and it
At ease & unfatigued
Avail ourselves
To answer The Question
& we find there's
Nothing to figure out
I weathered it
As i myself weathered
Now me and it
At ease & unfatigued
Avail ourselves
To answer The Question
& we find there's
Nothing to figure out
Before we could even arrive at the be good v do good debate we had to define good and soon a bunch of us had nodded off on the potent vines of Dhubba Berra Chank
That's when her meaty tail smashed through the stone wall of our dorm and we didn't even think it was a hurricane because no power matches the rage of a K bitch
Because we are a moral species like dogs we remind ourselves not to blame her for being herself acting in accordance with her primaeval mission
The conscience of one species may randomly overlap with another but the universe is a place of blotting not stroking condensing and scattering not planning and building
Our whole concept of improvement of oneself or otherwise was confirmed as stupid while we screamed and begged and choked on dust and the funk of the beast
The more of our brothers we saw dead the more we ourselves felt responsible for their tragedy not fortunate to have avoided it
Like the hugest possible period at the end of a sentence once she had achieved a level of saturation in terms of deconstruction she quietly shat
Now we can be shocked in another way still more disturbing
You see her purse her lips and shrink her mouth with muscles not oft used
It hurts a lot but not from gravity of topic which could never disabuse
Her of the smile a smile bigger than one would think anatomically possible
A smile taking up perhaps 40–48% of the face that's visible
Ya it's a shame a lady of LaVajra has to be a politician
Which interrupts her nirvanic rhythm
Especially whilst being shamed for her bliss
Her mouth is a reminder of Mthyuh's hungry maw
And we should only thank her for this
Our journey homeward is mapped to her craw
The next moment after realizing she was immortal
It was La Chama's first moment as well after all
An involuntary spasm of compassion and responsibility toward all life rose in her heart
Even for a nephew who said she'd been admired far more than she played the part
To Missy it was love sustained her up to the beginning
When from the jetsam of burst chrysalis stepped forward a leader darkly grinning
but after watching Reptily swim-crying in a bottom-lit tureen among thick
garbanzo shuck at a mock-cannibalistic pride event
i realized that a career is an arc even perhaps the upper half of a round
the bottom portion of which you spend under water or under ground
first being relieved of any bioburden
then sudsed cleansed returned right-side up to the pearl you started in
there are prayer wheels spinning instead of bicycle rims at twice the din
this must be the first place on the journey my good deeds've packed for me
this shadowbox of a town heaving all its energy direct to the abysmality
the ends of every street rise against the horizon
as if these intersections of temples plinths pools ghats
existed only within a black dot
but still perhaps too much to love and administer mindfully
or can an anti-career yield kinetic powers due to the addition of gravity?
i'm glad i've still got the dukes for putting up as needed
but isn't the real test in the delivery
yes and thanks for your reminder
there's that way they press the backs of one another's gloves together and also touch heads as a sign of respect and good sportsmanship
even though it's not sport
you've often commented on
and there's frequently not much respect involved at all but don't get me started look i'm still mourning the Death of Shab
...
i think i see her i still step gingerly so as not to upset her and strangely often speak to her as well right baby? hi hi hi hi whatcha doin? lala lalala lalalalala
mmm mmhmm
so having to prep and gird once again for institutional thuckfuggery may feel harsh but it may also get my proteins and enzymes whatever at more optimum levels break through the fatigue of grief
do you mean LaLa
ya of course Shab was her prototype but he'll not die soon
or ever really
correct now there's one with the battle fatigue and the heavy weight of the ages weighing on his empty saddle and the backbone that cannot withstand more pressure
but if it breaks he'll still not die
correct
he wouldn't heal entirely from that but it doesn't matter because he just changes the rules from any point that suits his evolving if disfiguring corporeal state. He updates our expectations rather than depending doggedly on ancient texts for example
he accommodates his disability into a relic of the Divine Unknowing and increases follower hits
right but we're not just talking about courtesy accommodations he can change the foundational principals upon which he and all of us have always operated under and from there down through to instruction manuals and daily shiv novenas
one difficult deity can shake the entire pantheon
they say this power does not necessarily spring from good judgment or measured action
in his case yes that's obvious they say it is a random power
they say it is a dangerous power
they say it is a hypnotic power
they say it is a power among powers
they say he is powerful with or without power
they say he owes no one an explanation of his powers
they say the word power is insufficiently representative of this level of power
they say it is a power leaked across boundaries by his ancestors
they say it is a power he somehow inherits from his descendants who do not yet live
they say that power herself envies his particularly intense force of power
they say that even a deity will starve on power alone but what more does he have besides power yet he does not starve
they say it is an unsettling power a power too great for a single source
they say it is a power that laughs at attempts to describe its power
they say it is a power that has compassion for individuals though may be fickle at the same rate as anyone
they say it is a power that is impossible to contain exploit manage distract destroy
they say it is a power greater than language itself which is already greater than explosives
they say it is a power to which the only option is surrender
they say it is a power so powerful as to be indifferent to obedience
they say it is a power that sensing flattery will turn away so furiously as to cause the sycophant to implode
they say it is a power for whom supernatural physical mystical judicial administrative people black and girl power are not mutually exclusive but rather just a few of the categories available to the holder of this all-encompassing power
Phyllis [trans.]
alms scaduh donda flo
caint git change foa dolla no mo
cain goeda wurshi poda place will blo
Fo poke beggin ondeyneeze
Rich foke due in what deypleeze
Middafoke ackin like deyaint got tea
Gahdoan ansa buddy allway see
by Missy
You like to go around ramming your head into things don't you. You are like a goat. Who is neither playful nor aggressive just very rammy. Has long given up bothering to question it. Look at your eyes with the rectangular smudges for pupils. You have a free pass to insanity.
Re: Death of LaLa, turns out the soul sure it's great but does require electricity to operate. I think the whole school of molecules of carbon whatever carry the spirit intact to another place where it can then be rehydrated integrally have lost their case. And what would be the meaning of having a soul in outer space or without containment in flesh. Is the soul not rhetorically, culturally and environmentally enmeshed with the experiences of a closed-body, one-planet existence? Even after consummating its state of perfection in a graft with the godhead, what then would a soul do what purpose would it serve. The whole concept of purpose would be stupid. Even being itself is rendered ridiculous.
Is that your deal? Are you like already passed over and bored as shit?
In a higher ring of heaven perhaps you could hinge in with the total mind, so that your brain would be the entire universe, and that would be soothing or one would hope. Or soothing is a body-contained experience only and a free mind would be happy just thinking and shutting off its corporal support functions, double down on sensory and recreative voyeurism.
Or not because the senses? Also a contained-in-body reality. Curiosity as well undoubtedly.
The only other option would be at the very highest level, being and knowing everything. Which could happen without a corpus but sounds challenging and burdensome. And of course, why?
In this moment and place, my love is yours.
Donna
Hermaphroditism can creep out from between the folds
Her male structures burst upon herself and any nearby
Sisters
Pandolora do you cry? Why do you cry
You have taken back the reproductive process
Even though you yourself were merely a
Clone
The stress in your environment, not your life choices
A mechanism for spreading pollen to your generations
Supersedes genetic pre-decisioning and intended commercial
Purpose
por Sto. Rabo
ho reason is come t'dis
izza orbiduf d'planets
if we had some moons to keep warm all year
not tyrant stars that care not who we are
we'd have more room to plant and grow my dear
lunar together travelling far
i saw about moonlight
onna inuhneh an i
fell in luh thinkinuh
moonlight is a freak light it's a re-light not a true light mind
more moons would make the night a verdant brite-lit kind
enough for us to leave the stars and all their fire behind
moonlight onna inuhneh
freak like an immigruh
soun like a typo luh
no true flower is too flower-like no true home needs starlight
we used to be so burdened by the laws of nature are a lie
let's chart our own course thru the universe moons at our side
love that take away erythang
ner give it back
juss wen yr ship comin in, comin in
to keep you grateful love at harvest time someone must die
death sweeps you in its wings to the re-knowing of impermanence
and leaves you high and dry unlike a tropic island paradise
take R moons an go
grab some mo on d'way
harviss ery day
wave it in your face.
Me have no plans for these moons minutes seconds to come besides
occupying space.
Freedom's not to run to roam not to walk away or come on home or
keep up with a pace.
an oath reaches the air and wondering
if the mountain is listening
all the mixes of genes and genders
trickle upward rendered by flame
disappear just the same
mother coughing up sweet poison
rings of voice on narrow ambitus
with Ilyn and his abacus
the prayer interrupts the transition
our mission remains at the border
in the naked disorder
gonna get a little of, girly get a little of, get a little of, girl
you know whatchr gonna get, gonna get a little of
from our God above.
boy oh boy i betcha caynt i betcha caynt you cayn't guess
whatchr prezzie's gonna be oh boy, oh boy this prezzie is
the biggest biggest thing you ever seen oh boy a prezzie
from our God above.
tranny tranny tranny whatchya gonna be? you a tranny that's
a very plain to see oh tranny tranny tranny are you granpa
or a granny whatchya got whatchya got tranny what you got
from our God above?
This meant that both private and public entities with private and public monitoring and recording operations could negotiate the content of your entire life since The Crack without your knowledge or participation. This would never do of course especially for those who could afford to stop it. This is what led to the Federation of Jansdaad Dads' (FJD) notorious assassination of Mthyuh Preservation Society Pilgrim General Chang K. Chang at Chang K. Chang Chank during Same Moons since many Same Moons now.
My associations prevent me from any movement at this time
Haha! I'm just asking you to get yr ass off my pijama soze i can put it on
And I'm telling you i have associations with moving my ass that are painful
Oh i thought you meant like your associations like friends affiliate joiny-join groups...
Don't get me started on friends and groups they all have horrifying associations
Horrifying soze i can have my pijama
In that if i move if i move toward an object i start to receive visions and those visions are flashbacks of horrifying experiences with the object
So it's not the objects really but what they remind you of
Associations
Uh huh. Pijama?
Let me ask you are you ready to move toward a fresh horror
No i don't like that
Then why not find a different pijama because i can accept it where it is now
Then i should try an also accept it, is that it
One way to move is to move on in a conversation
Ima move your face in a minute
I understand that you love me so your threats are more like caresses
For someone who is scared shitless you seem too randy
Don't get me started on randy
Tell me this do you also have horrific associations with moving away from rather than toward objects
No receding objects diminish fractally in terms of threat
I am going to walk backwards while you toss me my pijama
sloping mowed public grass
rectangle visible from the sky
dips and drains to embrace flooding
pulls in light public flotsam
which earns a municipal mulching
mown to fodder for new layers
there should have been an intervention
aimed at the plague in the upper tips
of the oldest circle of growth in the district
planted for ritual meaning or use
by native savages or civilians turned savage
where foxes and children ne'er do play
due to the border owners and their brutes
who claim and guard the plot complicitly
participate in de facto no-trespass
The immolation of innocence then turns out to be a central factor in so much of lavajraja.
We don't know that these creatures are innocent only that they are helpless to escape our will.
And that they seem to be born to be set on fire and smoked in a pipe.
Yes.
And that it's no coincidence that the molecules of their carbonated flesh connect with unique nirvanic receptors in cross-species administration by inhalation, sublingually or crammed into orifices.
It seems that way.
Of course who even thinks about it? Right. Hardly anyone.
Age lines gone develop over time on anyone i'm talking about unexpected lines and even deeper structural changes that are not expressed in any of my blood relatives.
And you believe that these changes have been the result of your lived experience
Right, because my predestined trajectory was corrupted and has continued to become so in a dizzyingly fractalizing pattern. My experience has been so different than lidderly any of the Jans ever.
Jan, i'd like you to reflect on something, and i want you to take your time to respond. Remember that you are in a circle of safety and respect here.
What is it?
When you say that your experience has been so different, i wonder what examples come to mind, examples of experiences, perhaps, that set you so dramatically apart, as you describe it, from your family and peers in the Chank Lands?
You are standing at the top of a gigantic scaffolding braced against the face of a high cliff. You have to hold on to a railing to avoid being brushed away by the wind from my nostrils. All that just so that you can look into my face as we speak. I can dart out my tongue and have you whole way in the back of my throat to savor all day if i wished.
Is that what you would want to do?
See what i mean? You wonder if i might ingest you. Doesn't make for fun family occasions.
Well, give me an example. Because apart from what you've just pointed out, i don't feel estranged from you at all. And we just met.
Ok, i was out on a festival day just soaring not bothering anyone except that i had to drop excrement and there was no way i was going all the way out to sea because I had to be by my Jans for lunch. So there was a nice anonymous patch of green grass aim fire done.
K's are notorious for dropping dung on undesignated sites. And it was festival so you didn't do the laughing cry, i assume.
Right. So i get to my Jans and Jan's like never mind we're not going. I'm like what do you mean not going where. She says ya we were gonna have a picnic but some mthyuhfarking K just dunged up the whole park. The tables are completely buried. Alls you can see is a flagpole sticking up there where the field office was.
Ah, yes, that does sound like a very good example of what you're talking about. Delightful!
It's one of my favorites. I love to tell that one. She was sobbing so hard but she held out the palm of her hand to signal that i should not come near to comfort her.
She cried not for the spoiled picnic, but for the devastating toll your genetic path has taken upon your most elemental networks and interfaces.
Devastating i don't know about that.
Certainly profound.
Ya, i'm surprised you would say devastating i had you tagged more as your difference has widened the diversity of the family or just one more aspect of someone they love etc.
That's what i meant. Of course. And you? How do you see it?
Sobbing is surrender. They have to be reminded to praise Mthyuh. I am not the reality police-- i don't have to be. My presence alone jars one into submission: to me, and therefore to lavajraja.
it's taken a while, but the good memories are coming on
all that cement, and then the stone, scorpions poisoned springs
there were words that were pictures of another tongue
i think of the smiling faces among the barbed warnings
a subset of the females was eager to bring you in
they could announce their thirst with bright scarves whereas the men
were so undercover you might mistake them for border patrol guys
working an angle down at the same bar as the wandering eyes
off the same parking lot as the hooptie-tel and the vittle grill
you can get your mom across or get off with your cousin's boss
there's dim lights and cold drinks like any dive in the heat sink
a private betting parlor more than a moment to think for a wayside crawler
there's a highway runs through
but it cuts us in two
there's a bridge, but it's costly to use
i'm a peacock on a road
you're the last horned toad
in a place that only we knew
by Silvia
Important shimmering of the regulatory codex happens between partisan representatives either in different parts of heavily wooded areas or at the edges of adjacent cliffs or even sometimes in abandoned bone nests, which can hang from the cliffs as long as the rock can hold them.
K's peering from the occupied nests lounging in caves or soaring above keep mostly quiet during Days of Destruction. Legend holds that the festival was designed for that reason: to hypnotize Mthyuh's hosts.
They wanted and needed to hypnotize K's not to have a big party but so that they could get done all the doables they couldn't do as random prey owing to the burdensome and costly precautions they had to take in order to take turns in an orderly fashion to calculate who can have a chance to be eaten next, and so on.
Plus, even a single K's earsplitting HAHAHA and its wingspan against the sun, creating temporary climactic changes and blinding darkness, all of that had an effect on overall sanity, even of pets, and this was the most caring respectful traditional way possible to get Ks to just stop.
Flekes themselves of course don't make critical inquiry upon their own generational habits and mostly consider the rather low chance of a violent, live blood sacrifice the least of their worries. The specter of living to a very old age is the greater terror.
The partisan fleke representatives shimmer the codex during the Shouting Moons from forest meadow to forest meadow or cliff to cliff and they must conduct the regulatory negotiations only by shouting back and forth as loudly as they can. This tends to keep the messages short and heartfelt. They all know the festival is only a weekend long. But they have needs, which tend to be generously met if they can get them across and back again, sometimes heavily depending on the winds.
The partisan fleke representatives must wear very bright robes as a sign that they are vulnerable and evocative to Ks and that their spiritual duties always come first. Again, these details are not on their minds at all. It's just another day for them. Some might find all of this fascinating and even life changing if they ever sat down to reflect on or read about it if, no that isn't fair: reading's not a thing for them. Maybe they might talk about it with another fleke on a break or, it is said, share it with their faces only.
During the Shouting Moons it's very important that you remain as still and quiet as possible. Ks nodding out during DoD can wake up. The whole idea is that everyone cooperate at this time, even guests. Allow Mthyuh's hosts to feel the tingling in their spines and pyncos. They say the regulatory shouting first started when the early flekes figured out how to distract a K for a few minutes by shouting at it simultaneously from adjacent hilltops. Eat me first! That is how that famous chant became part of the fleke daily parlance, especially during volca, when one may shout out Eat met first! and it's never a non sequitur. This wish must be at front of mind.
They're expressing themselves or sending a message.
False messages with their teeth. How do you know when they'll attack?
You really don't but you have to also send messages with your facial plates and central mouth.
So complicated much more than if i would just be feeding them to Mthyuh.
Our objective is more sophisticated and social not nutrition.
I'll call it diplomacy. For this i can learn their false language. To serve lachama.
Remember they also know how you taste.
Yes after cooking. Or they walk around using our scalp thorns as penile implants.
This is the place to air those grievances for now. With me. And thorn farms come from barns and cause no harm.
They come from barns these thorns how so.
Think sponge sores that grow on cairns or warts on toes. They rear your horn cells in rows and harvest them like corn.
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