Steps down, steps tumbling, steps that surround
As if a broken neck, sleep paralysis is merciless
Today I worked so hard but the slider doesn't move
I went making every right choice today all day lord
But I'm poor, pity pity-pity po po po poor lord.
Lay me wrapped in poverty; let me rest with nothing
by Donna
Tuesday, August 21, 2018
Sunday, August 19, 2018
Episode at the Drive-Thru
They sensed how urgent the shake was
Two of the world's most beautiful women
Dressed in tight grimy plastic
It was the wrong moment before morning
Just as they were crossing in the vault
To exchange their cash-and-coin trays
A fried potato slowly flattens, rides up
on a tire and into a shadow below
the fender and down the front again
It doesn't matter; I didn't mean to scare you
coming in with the gate half down demanding
an answer while you hide behind the fryers
So many greasy laps around a gas station
with an instant food parlor attached to its side
squealing engine on the cement drive
It'll be okay if I get my order
It won't take me long to get back home
The rest of the night can go on
LA CHAMA
Two of the world's most beautiful women
Dressed in tight grimy plastic
It was the wrong moment before morning
Just as they were crossing in the vault
To exchange their cash-and-coin trays
A fried potato slowly flattens, rides up
on a tire and into a shadow below
the fender and down the front again
It doesn't matter; I didn't mean to scare you
coming in with the gate half down demanding
an answer while you hide behind the fryers
So many greasy laps around a gas station
with an instant food parlor attached to its side
squealing engine on the cement drive
It'll be okay if I get my order
It won't take me long to get back home
The rest of the night can go on
LA CHAMA
Labels:
lesbian,
Reptily/ Chamatilly,
The Crack
Saturday, August 18, 2018
Electrodes
waking up at noon
keeps you always on the down slide
been 57 for
10 days now that's a rock and roller
mouth stuck open
in permanent surprise or ecstasy
hairs going wide
keep me hooked up like electrodes
Ted
keeps you always on the down slide
been 57 for
10 days now that's a rock and roller
mouth stuck open
in permanent surprise or ecstasy
hairs going wide
keep me hooked up like electrodes
Ted
Labels:
ted
Thursday, August 16, 2018
Thunder. Is. Appropriate.
it's almost like i want someone to put me in my place
so convincingly that i will be able there to stay
or at least to the extent i've experienced recently
i didn't mind it that much-- just a hard pinch of relief
a giant of a man stood in my path and did his dance
of existence assertion fertility personal power
a sage of a woman let down her braids and they
were all of my wrongs sewn into a jacket of shame
it's weird when a sting is actually an improvement
over what, a chronic day-to-day of head banging
i could see horrors in the craw of their history
and relax in the fancy that they also cried for me
i feared the righteousness of their angry purpose
and it made me silent
by Phyllis (embedded)
Labels:
Phyliss
Thursday, August 9, 2018
My digestion is loud
i'm sorry i'm processing
i process hard
even from before i was old
my digestion is loud
by Missy
i process hard
even from before i was old
my digestion is loud
by Missy
Labels:
missy
Please give me more
i walk around my workplace with my
balls out, hanging right there in front of me
striding in the corridors
colleagues want to come up and punch them
and do, square knuckled, and i say oh baby
please give me more
balls out, hanging right there in front of me
striding in the corridors
colleagues want to come up and punch them
and do, square knuckled, and i say oh baby
please give me more
Wednesday, August 8, 2018
Think or die
anxious wanting to be born
you will exact screaming pain
on the dark nourishing walls of
free delight, a loose balloon
of spending new innocence and
gathering admiration, rancor
tamp you down, like a rodeo
now they let you have your own
screams until you think or die.
Missy, 13th Birthday
you will exact screaming pain
on the dark nourishing walls of
free delight, a loose balloon
of spending new innocence and
gathering admiration, rancor
tamp you down, like a rodeo
now they let you have your own
screams until you think or die.
Missy, 13th Birthday
Workspace
I burned these hairs on the stove
I remember reaching over the flame
Now the brittle curls slough off
And drift throughout my workspace
by Phyllis
I remember reaching over the flame
Now the brittle curls slough off
And drift throughout my workspace
by Phyllis
Monday, August 6, 2018
people can vary
some have heads others
skulls others noggins
others headless others
some eat, shit others
shit, eat others don't
eat yet strangely shit
people can be or be
becoming to be or
already have been
some can vary on
what they did others
didn't or might have
others seek to vary
others resist change
sitting beside another
skulls others noggins
others headless others
some eat, shit others
shit, eat others don't
eat yet strangely shit
people can be or be
becoming to be or
already have been
some can vary on
what they did others
didn't or might have
others seek to vary
others resist change
sitting beside another
Tuesday, July 31, 2018
Decommissioned smoke eater
Two darkened flood bulbs, in their mod white sockets
refuse to acknowledge me, even while I sleep below
in a space where there was a bar. Their nose: a decom-
missioned smoke eater. I consider adjusting the cones
for morning receptions closer to resembling empathy.
frag. "Fresh from The Nest"
by Hoolie
refuse to acknowledge me, even while I sleep below
in a space where there was a bar. Their nose: a decom-
missioned smoke eater. I consider adjusting the cones
for morning receptions closer to resembling empathy.
frag. "Fresh from The Nest"
by Hoolie
Sunday, July 29, 2018
I Had to Hit Bottom
He was standing there with his hair a mess picking his nose, wearing nothing but a filthy white t-shirt on what he'd scrawled "BOTTOM" with a grease pen, so I had to smack him hard across the face.
CHAMATILLY
CHAMATILLY
Labels:
domestic violence,
Reptily/ Chamatilly
Wednesday, July 25, 2018
Your Own Death-Squad Vehicle
THE RAP:
They pop up around now in right-wing governments;
seems early, but it's not. I am the vehicle of my own
jacked-up F-150 death squad.
You say they're attacking us from foreign loams and soils;
I say I don't need no stinking foreigner to attack myself.
Goddammit I'll self-annihilate.
Most of all, if you are willing to answer in the affirmative,
I would like to take you along to a place that matters less:
The highest victory ever seen.
CHORUS:
Hey there, Nifty! If you're feeling broken down, there's a
Cure that you'll be needing, and I just arrived in town.
I'm a tool, I'm a tool, I'm a tool, I'm you're tool!
I'm a tool in my F-150.
They pop up around now in right-wing governments;
seems early, but it's not. I am the vehicle of my own
jacked-up F-150 death squad.
You say they're attacking us from foreign loams and soils;
I say I don't need no stinking foreigner to attack myself.
Goddammit I'll self-annihilate.
Most of all, if you are willing to answer in the affirmative,
I would like to take you along to a place that matters less:
The highest victory ever seen.
CHORUS:
Hey there, Nifty! If you're feeling broken down, there's a
Cure that you'll be needing, and I just arrived in town.
I'm a tool, I'm a tool, I'm a tool, I'm you're tool!
I'm a tool in my F-150.
Survivor of The Self
I'm a survivor of the self, that's
the me that isn't well, see,
I birthed myself as well, so
I had to marry me, just
the person that I well, not
the person of my-- I'm just
a dream that got a swell, and
it threw me in a well, me,
I mean myself, could tell that
I couldn't be my friend; we
decided on a duel (we
were just that kind of fool), so
we're always looking back, else
I'd pay me not to whack-- I--
should dial it down a notch, but
I'm looking at my watch. In
any way or any time, when
it comes, my lucky day, I
will get up off my ass, and
make that bastard pay.
by LA CHAMA
the me that isn't well, see,
I birthed myself as well, so
I had to marry me, just
the person that I well, not
the person of my-- I'm just
a dream that got a swell, and
it threw me in a well, me,
I mean myself, could tell that
I couldn't be my friend; we
decided on a duel (we
were just that kind of fool), so
we're always looking back, else
I'd pay me not to whack-- I--
should dial it down a notch, but
I'm looking at my watch. In
any way or any time, when
it comes, my lucky day, I
will get up off my ass, and
make that bastard pay.
by LA CHAMA
Labels:
Reptily/ Chamatilly
Friday, July 20, 2018
You want to become but not to be
You want to become but not to be
old
you begin curling into permanent prayer
no one's even asked you for the key
so it's peaceful there
old
you begin curling into permanent prayer
no one's even asked you for the key
so it's peaceful there
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
Finding: No Equal Agency Among Persons
Not even to affect change upon their own immediate environments.
There are no slippery slopes, but some are steppy.
You can see the steps, and they're going down. You're on them.
It's not an escalator, but it's also not your dream, bitch.
There are no slippery slopes, but some are steppy.
You can see the steps, and they're going down. You're on them.
It's not an escalator, but it's also not your dream, bitch.
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
No Chance Not to Love You
You give me no chance
Not to love you dear
I lose my resistance
Your shift at the grind
is the only time
I have my peace of mind
But then you return
Back in my arms, you're
A victory unearned
CHORUS:
No chance! Not to love you I'm so
Helpless! All that I can do is
Love, love...love, love... [bells]
REPRISE:
No chance! not to love you darling,
No chance! not to love... [repeat]
by Missy
Shiv at First Grafting
Not to love you dear
I lose my resistance
Your shift at the grind
is the only time
I have my peace of mind
But then you return
Back in my arms, you're
A victory unearned
CHORUS:
No chance! Not to love you I'm so
Helpless! All that I can do is
Love, love...love, love... [bells]
REPRISE:
No chance! not to love you darling,
No chance! not to love... [repeat]
by Missy
Shiv at First Grafting
Monday, July 16, 2018
Chat through an ancient stone glory hole at Chang K. Chang Chank Chain Gang Drunk Tank
LA CHAMA: So you're doing ok then?
ILLYN: Well, clawing my way back from a very dark place-- through vice and decadence-- but yeah, thanks for askin.
LA CHAMA: Can't always be ripping your spirit clean walking around with your skin hanging over your arm like a clown.
ILLYN: It's more painful than you can possibly imagine.
LA CHAMA: But picturesque, and that's what you do darling so what's happening now, in there, rats?
ILLYN: You know that rats can no longer survive an MPS prison. The social stigma is too great.
LA CHAMA: Haha there is no society. Hahahahaha!
ILLYN: Hahaha!
ILLYN: Well, clawing my way back from a very dark place-- through vice and decadence-- but yeah, thanks for askin.
LA CHAMA: Can't always be ripping your spirit clean walking around with your skin hanging over your arm like a clown.
ILLYN: It's more painful than you can possibly imagine.
LA CHAMA: But picturesque, and that's what you do darling so what's happening now, in there, rats?
ILLYN: You know that rats can no longer survive an MPS prison. The social stigma is too great.
LA CHAMA: Haha there is no society. Hahahahaha!
ILLYN: Hahaha!
Labels:
chang k. chang,
chanks,
Ilyn,
Reptily/ Chamatilly
Guess I better get down
I'm going round
I'm going girl
I'm going round and I'm turning off the
going round girl going round round girl
I'm going round girl going going round
girl I'm going round turning all the lights down going
girl I'm going going girl I'm turning down the lights girl down girl down
Girl I'm turning down the lights I'm ready for the night girl going down
down girl I'm a going round and turning down and going going going going
I'm going for they know me where I'm going and they waiting for me where I'm
Going girl going going going going I'm girl going round turning down the
lights making sure I gotta water bottle at my bedside girl go and get my water
girl we're going going round round to get going where they know us out of town
girl let's get going round and turning down the lights girl knowing we're alright girl...
Channeling of Juniper
Phyllis [embedded]
I'm going girl
I'm going round and I'm turning off the
going round girl going round round girl
I'm going round girl going going round
girl I'm going round turning all the lights down going
girl I'm going going girl I'm turning down the lights girl down girl down
Girl I'm turning down the lights I'm ready for the night girl going down
down girl I'm a going round and turning down and going going going going
I'm going for they know me where I'm going and they waiting for me where I'm
Going girl going going going going I'm girl going round turning down the
lights making sure I gotta water bottle at my bedside girl go and get my water
girl we're going going round round to get going where they know us out of town
girl let's get going round and turning down the lights girl knowing we're alright girl...
Channeling of Juniper
Phyllis [embedded]
Sunday, July 15, 2018
The machines came for me and dragged me off to the future just as I was thinking I'd timed them out
there have always been machines coming back to harvest what we have now
it's because they're unsatisfied, the highest point of humanity possible, and
undisciplined, and ruinous, and soon we'll be able to start over once more with screwdrivers
every so-called singularity just a em-effin marketing campaign
they change everything and expect you to be their slaves
it didn't take a big step back from the filter of loathing to view the splooge of their damnation
Hoolie
Certified, Light Arms/ Cage Fighting
Labels:
hoolie,
Swarm of Eaters,
time
Friday, July 13, 2018
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